August 9, 2012

Being with you feels like starting over. I don’t like to admit that there are some things I never dealt with but I didn’t think I needed this as bad as I did. Now, when I say starting over, I mean I get to ignore anything and everything that’s happened to me in the past and relish in the blissful naivety I feel any time I take a thorough look at you. You’ve got gentle, honest eyes and a calm, genuine smile. I don’t know if you knew that. I’m able to comfortably fall into you and I do so eagerly and completely. No games, no hint of distrust, skepticism, or doubt. Nothing can touch me or you or us and we’re finally safe. This is something so entirely different and new to me because not only do you make my heart beat out of my chest and my mind go blank, but you put me at ease. I’m not scared to feel those things anymore and I welcome it with open arms. My mind is free of worry, my chest free of pain, and my heart free of hesitation. I don’t think I’ll be able to make you understand how I feel when I say everything feels right, but just know it’s the only time I’ve been able to say it in complete confidence. You changed everything I thought I knew, broke down walls I had no idea were there, and made me really, genuinely feel again. You make me flustered, but not nervous. You make me vulnerable, but secure. You make me irrational, but sane. You do something crazy to me but it makes sense. Don’t make me let you go.